There are days when it seems like everything is out of control and today was one of those days. Sam is going through his fit throwing phase. He'll fall to the ground in tears, roll around and act just generally unpleasant. If I try to pick him up to soothe him or remove him from this situation, I usually get gently hit which is totally unacceptable. Sunday morning we were loading up to go to church and he tried hitting me as I put him in the car seat and as soon as I finished buckling him up, he blew me a kiss! How can I get or stay mad?! He's 20 months old and totally knows what buttons to push to make me melt. I am going to have to depend on Jason to keep him disciplined and to help me work on disciplining him as well.


When Sam falls out crying, Gracie tries to mimic him so even though she is not upset, she'll fake cry which is just as unnerving as Sam's hollering. Or she'll choose just that high tense moment to make her own demands and when she wants something, she does not comprehend "wait". I feel like I am constantly telling someone to wait, so-and-so needs something or I'm helping so-and-so with something at that moment.


To top off our Monday morning, Haley went to bed way too late last night, woke up sleepy and with a horrific diaper rash. She just didn't feel well, so there was nothing but whining (albeit understandable). I ended up picking her up from school at 11:00 due to a low grade fever.


Since Jason has to leave for work at 7:00 am and I have to get everyone out of the door by myself, I wanted to cry after everyone else cried through the Monday morning routine. Needless to say, I walked into work late, tense, angry and just plain pissed off if I'm being completely honest! I was already so exhausted and my day had barely begun. However, before I walked out of the house, I grabbed my Bible hoping to claim a few quiet moments at work. As I ate my vanilla cinnamon oatmeal on a cool, October morning I proceeded to read several verses regarding patience and began to pray and feel better, moment by moment. Then I turned on our local KLove station and sang out loud and erased the remaining pieces of frustration! I love when our heavenly Father reminds me to turn to Him...He makes our lives soooo much better!!!